My new doc said I should be journaling more.
I would if I could corner all those emotions and slam them into words.
- with every goodbye, you learn...
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berleye- August 23rd, 23:18
After a while you learn
the subtle difference between holding a hand and chaining a soul
and you learn
that love doesn't mean leaning and company doesn't always mean security
And you begin to learn
that kisses aren't contracts and presents aren't promises
and you begin to accept your defeats
with your head up and your eyes ahead
with the grace of woman, not the grief of a child
and you learn
to build all your roads on today because tomorrow's ground is too uncertain for plans
and futures have a way of falling down in mid-flight
After a while you learn
so you plant your own garden and decorate your own soul
instead of waiting for someone to bring you flowers.
And you learn that you really can endure
you really are strong
you really do have worth
and you learn
and you learn
with every goodbye, you learn...
- Stupid Horoscope
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- berleye
- April 30th, 13:42
Everything changes in a flash today -- some things for the better, some for the worse, but you are enthralled by the wonder of it all. In the long run, you are glad it all went down this way.
NO MORE CHANGES, SHOCKS, TALKS, EXPECTATIONS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
THIS IS ME RUNNING FOR THE HILLS IF ANYTHING MORE THAN HI HAPPENS!!!!!!!!!!!
- Walking Update
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- berleye
- April 29th, 10:11
1-22-09 3,776 steps (I think I was not wearing the pedometer correctly though)
1-23-09 8,235 steps
1-24-09 8,337 steps
1-25-09 7,348 steps
1-26-09 11,820 steps
1-27-09 4,716 steps
1-28-09 6,333 steps
Total of 50,565 steps for the week
average 7,224/day
I will find out later today how I compare to other walkers in the program
I have to increase this by 500 steps (min.) for next week
- Opinion of the new Ribbon Tools in Revit, but I believe it applies to all Ribon Tools in software.
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- berleye
- March 27th, 9:21
http://architechure.blogspot.com/2009/03/well-intentioned-road-paving.html
Every time you put down a tool to do something else, the tool get's put away..."poof!" Maybe in a drawer, maybe hung on the peg board. Or perhaps in a box on a shelf. So no matter what you do, the moment you take your hand off the tool...poof!. That'd waste a lot of time, eh? Put the hammer down to pick up the screwdriver...poof!. No, wait. Can't pick up the screwdriver - it's already been put away in the drawer to your left. Now put the hammer down (poof!) and open the drawer and pick up the screwdriver. Now put the screwdriver back down (poof!) to pick up the hammer. Changed mind, still need the screwdriver...sh!t...already back in the drawer...d@mn magic tool shed!
What could be worse? How about a demonically possessed magic tool shed. Here's how it'd work:
Every time you put down a tool to do something else, the tool get's put away. But here's the difference: it's not in the same place twice. It depends on what you're about to do with the tool.
No kidding.
Need a hammer? Well - depends. If you're going to hammer a nail, it's on the pegboard above the bench. But if you're going to pull a nail, it's in the drawer to your right. If you're going to chisel a bit of wood, we'll - it's in the box on the shelf behind you. But if you're going to smash something (like the drunken leprechaun that haunts your tool shed) it's in the silverware drawer in the kitchen.
- One Word Meme
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- berleye
- February 9th, 14:38
1. Where is your cell phone? desk
2. Your significant other? Working
3. Your hair? insane
4. Your mother? struggling
5. Your father? Working
6. Your favorite thing? revit
7. Your dream last night? None
8. Your favorite drink? Big-ass-cup-o-coffee
9. Your dream/goal? Happiness
10. What room you are in? cube
11. Your hobby? Football (or my life outside football either way)
12. Your fear? elderly
13. Regrets? nope
14. Where were you last night? Home
16. Muffins? nope
17. Wish list item? Home
18. Where you grew up? Military
19. Last thing you did? Lunch (with BFF)
20. What are you wearing? Blue (sweater)
21. Your TV? small
22. Your pets? cat
23. Friends? best
24. Your life? Good
25. Your mood? Tired
26. Missing someone? always
27. Car? love
28. Something you're not wearing? Earings?
29. Your favorite store? Polo Outlet
30. Your favorite color? Dark Red
33. The last time you laughed? lunch
34. Last time you cried? bday
35. Who will also do this? guess
36. One place that I go to over and over? beach
37. One person who emails me regularly? Freckles
38. My favorite place to eat? Any place I don’t have to cook or do dishes
39. Why you participated in this survey? bored
40. What are you doing tonight? working
- Hi
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- berleye
- February 4th, 10:33
Yes I am alive and well.
Some days my head hurts more than others.
Still putting one foot in front of the other. (there is a Christmas Special Song to that?)
Work is Work, Football is good, Family is good, Wife is great, Friends Rock.
We didn’t get the house, and I really wanted it.
I don’t like not getting what I want.
I am going to be in Cambridge on Thursday night, my dinner plans fell thru if any one is interested in a 6:30 or 7pm dinner let me know.
- Mom called
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- berleye
- February 2nd, 12:08
Her test results came back Chemo isn't working.
She has many new spots, and it is under her ribs now.
She is not gogin to do Chemo.
Maybe start Radiation next week.
There is some experimental Chemo that might be available soon and they want to put her on that.
It won't cure it, but maybe slow it down.
I guess the clock is ticking now.
- Happy Holidays
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- berleye
- December 24th, 2008
Happy Holidays
- The Five Love Languages
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- berleye
- December 13th, 2008
The Five Love Languages
My primary love languages are probably
Acts of Service and Quality Time.Complete set of results
Acts of Service: 9 Quality Time: 9 Words of Affirmation: 6 Physical Touch: 5 Receiving Gifts: 1
Information
Unhappiness in relationships, according to Dr. Gary Chapman, is often due to the fact that we speak different love languages. Sometimes we don't understand our partner's requirements, or even our own. We all have a "love tank" that needs to be filled in order for us to express love to others, but there are different means by which our tank can be filled, and there are different ways that we can express love to others.
Take the quiz
- Fall Schedule
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- berleye
- August 14th, 2008
7:30am – 4:30 Work4:35 – 4:55 Home5:00 – 8:00 Football Practice (m-th)8:30 – 9:30 Football Admin (depending on the day – sometimes more sometimes less)9:30 pm-6:45 am HomeSaturdays I like to see Mom go to the beach etc…Sundays will be football games (5 games in total for the day)5 seconds between – posting to LJ or My Space
- Short UPdate
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- berleye
- July 24th, 2008
Today:
Picked up Mom from Logan airport at 10:30am.
Lunch with mom & Charlene.
Create and print a gazillion gift certificates, and order forms for photos.
Finish packing and storing stuff Wife believes we need for our trip to Chicago;
Leaving for Chicago in 5 hours.
Sometime in the last few weeks:
M felt unsafe going to the Boys & Girls Club Pals summer camp so we pulled her, I got a refund from the weeks I prepaid. She loved it last year, this year the help is less than desirable.
Leaning toward getting the little white slipper (Maltese puppy), Took M to visit it yesterday, and yeah he kinda grows on you.
I think I am ready for this weekend’s Championship game. We shall see!
- Quick Update as requested:
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- berleye
- July 10th, 2008
Mom is still sick – she has Chemo today.Taking Mom & C to the Boston Airport they are going to Antigua (sp?) leaving Friday night – this is her “last vacation” and she wants to go there again.Taking Jr. to the Warwick Airport before work on Friday she is going to see her Ex. (don’t ask I have no idea what is going on)My younger sister was relieved of her duties from her last tattoo parlor (she is an excellent artist, but she fights severe Manic Depressive disorder and self medicates instead of seeking professional help) so she is spending many days with Mom and I am green with jealousy. I just don’t have it in me to be a slacker.My youngest brother is still being a Wack-Job – Watch for a cult in Florida run by him sometime in the future.My other younger brother is a big emo mess and can’t talk to any of us without crying still. He comes up from Florida every 4 weeks to see Mom.Work is insane – it is the construction & design time of yearThe IWFL Championship game is on July 26th, I have to finish the program design by Sunday night to send out to publish on Monday.I need to buy a small 4x6 photo printer before the trip (not a huge priority or rent)I have been working 3-4 hours nightly on IWFL stuff, and I thank my wife for her patience.That is all I can think of…..Wait something I learned today that an 8 year old could probably have told me.If you leave your Fluff (no peanut butter on Wait Watchers Whole Wheat Bread) sandwich in its bagy in your desk drawer overnight the fluff flattens out to a white smear on the bread and it is absorbed by the bred. So you get moist bread, and no fluff. Gross!
- Today
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- berleye
- June 21st, 2008
I am alive and well.
Going to Pride today/tonight taking the kids during the day - Out dancing tonight.
Join us if you get a chance, call if you know the number.
Mom -( Ramblings )There are so many people to thank for the comments, phone calls, and overall support and good thoughts for the last few months.
I will try to post more, and positive stuff. I truly am blessed with my friends.
Thank You All
- ARGH!
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- berleye
- June 15th, 2008
As I was sitting in our office making awesome progress on my huge to do list - including programs, event cards, and emails. I decided I had some free time and I would add some of my new memory to my old computer instead of reprograming my awesome new computer with the many programs I need to work at home.
I toasted my mother board.
I took my main hard drive with the windows on it and plugged it in as a secondary hd to Freckles machine. Worked great EXCEPT I can't access My Documents!!!!!!!!!!!!
ARGH
My head hurts, my new computer is fast, but WTF!!!!!!!!!!!!!
- Mom
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- berleye
- May 9th, 2008
Mom had surgery yesterday.It did not go as we had hoped it would.After a few hours of surgery the dr. called and said she would be in a room in 2 hours. He could not resection her liver as he planned on doing. He had found cancer cells in her fat tissue outside of her liver. This puts mom at stage 4-cancer inoperable.Instead of placing her in ICU for a night they moved her directly over to the Coop building, no monitors, nurses visit every 1 to 2 hours, and the rooms are cramped. Over all I won’t complain much about the cramped rooms that was just insult to injury.I will write more on the bad line a student put in my moms neck, the resulting overdose, the lack of pain control, the incorrectly connected suction and oxygen machines (we did not figure out O2 till around 11:15pm), The lack of concern when she could not stay awake during the overdose, and the still lack of care they gave her resulting in one of us staying with her at all times. My sister chose last night as her overnight shift. I did plan on going to work but with things so touch and go I am headed back to the hospital.
- So far this week has been good.
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- berleye
- April 16th, 2008
I helped my mom wrap up some clients on Sunday, and unexpectedly got paid by the client for my time, and all I did was sort and file receipts & bills to file or go to the accountant for year-end taxes. I did find some large receipts that will be tax deductible.
( Other news: )
- Another day in my crazy life
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- berleye
- March 22nd, 2008
Getting very little sleep last night, getting up going to my Mom’s to pick up my stepmom and friends, driving to Providence from Charleston to go to Desire’s. Desire’s “Gentleman’s” club does not allow un escorted women in, so they thru 5 paying women out of their club; to bad we had cash.So I drove us all to the Cadillac Lounge (and was grateful not to see any relatives dancing) and had some fun.Then went back to Charleston for a 55th birthday party for my Step mom.I am very very tired!And one more day left in the weekend.
